All the lonely people, where do they all belong?

I have been putting off writing here for several months. It isn't that I haven't had plenty of interesting things to write about, it just seems that what I have been struggling with has been all consuming. Most of my life I have struggled with one major constant feeling. Loneliness. I was sick often growing up, and especially through my teen years, and I remember feeling very lonely. Fast forward to present day, and I am still struggling with the same loneliness. I have a very melancholy side, which I am beginning to realize only adds to my feelings of loneliness. I often feel like Eleanor Rigby from the Beatles song. This is totally depressing, I know! But I have finally come face to face with how I really feel and I can perfectly see that what I am lacking is contentment. Contentment is that inner genuine peace of the soul that no matter what trials God is allowing in your life, you are at peace with what He is doing. I need that, I want that. I desperately desire to have that inward peace that isn't just a passing feeling, but instead the attitude of my heart. My husband is a great example of contentment. I have never met someone who seems so naturally content, and yet I struggle and struggle! One man who truly mastered the divine art of contentment was Paul the Apostle. He was beaten, imprisoned, stoned, shipwrecked, imprisoned, with health problems, and yet he was able to say "I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content" (Philippians 4:11). Wow! I find the attitude of his heart to be amazing. I have been slowly reading the book, The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment. I really do believe that as I read about contentment, and with the help of Jesus, apply it to my life that He will teach me what true contentment is, and then I will at peace. I appreciate your prayers